Sunday, December 16, 2012

What I'm feeling while we are waiting

An impending date is approaching that I am dreading. January 1. Our due date. I said after the miscarriage and I quote, "If I'm not pregnant by the time our due date rolls around I might be seriously depressed." And here we are. This month is our last chance before I will see how I'll feel. We should know by then if we are pregnant or not, but don't blame us if we don't share on here that soon. I honestly thought by this time we would be on our way to being parents. And like I said, maybe we are, but it is a mix bag of emotions right now. I don't want to get my hopes up, because what if we aren't. But I don't want to think about not being pregnant because then I will have to face January 1and not be pregnant, and that worries me. I'm also a little scared that if I am pregnant what if I don't get excited because I'm scared about what will happen? Will I ever be able to accept and be excited? I guess every pregnant woman has those same fears, so it isn't out of the ordinary. The countdown is upon us. In less than two week we'll know. So we'll see.


  1. I can't even imagine how you are feeling and I hope you get to be excited again, I pray that everyday! Love you lots!

  2. I can't even begin to know what this waiting feels like...but I will pray for strength for you and Tim, and also pray really really really hard that this all works! Love you!!!


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